Insomnia

For some odd reason, I've taken pleasure in staying up at odd hours in the morning. I can't seem to get to sleep. A lot of things are going through my head and I can't seem to put a stop to them. Whether it is me being worried about a job, my studies, my girlfriend...It always crosses my mind.

I am extremely tired...Sleepy. I put my head on the pillow and I feel I'm placing it on a pile of rocks. Eyes wide open, anticipating sunlight and motion in the cold, still air conditioned darkness. Artificial lights flickering in the room as my computer scans my system for viruses...Thankfully, the wailing through my speakers follower by the "Virus has been detected" message has not made me spring up and rush me into thinking my computer is in danger just because some lowlife was bored and decided to create a virus that wreaks havoc.

What kind of point are these kind of people trying to get across?

Anyway...If you're a hacker, I got no beef against you <3. Let's be friends...Don't kill my PC.



Boredom and tiredness have taken me hostage. I have to find something to do.

But I promised my girlfriend we would go running today.

This is gonna be a long day.

And I forgot...

So I completely forgot about the blog again... Apparently I'm not as into therapy as I thought I was.

So last night I got into a heavy discussion with my grandmother. Even though she got angry, I found it extremely amusing. My grandmother, a working woman born in Cuba has seen a lot of messed up things and how the American government has saved her from the clutches of communism. She struggled a lot to get out of that piece of rock. So she defends the United States at all costs...Even if she doesn't make any sense. I love the freedoms we (used to) have and all the wonderful things that come from this country... I love it...And because I love it, it saddens me how it's all crumbling down. How greed has taken over and people don't have the power any more...IF we ever had the power in the first place anyway.

We were talking also about the war and she was saying how she would love to have a son that would enlist in the army to fight for his ideals and die with honor. While I'm all up for people dying with honor, where's the honor in fighting a war while your leader is cowardly shying away in his white house surrounded by guards? Shouldn't an honorable leader step into the war with his troops? Nah, not the president, he's far too important to be replaced, even though he will be in a couple of years just so higher powers can give us a fresh face every now and then. Of course, my grandmother said all that about people dying with honor and going to the war, but she argues with my 28 year old aunt whenever she stays out past 10.

I understand my grandmother, she lived through hard times where the only glimmer of hope was the intervention of the United States army in Cuba, but a lot of people born and raised in american soil have this blind ideal of pride in this mass of land that just doesn't give anything anymore. What happened to the world of opportunity? The land of the free? The home of the brave? The U.S looks like a bunch of bullies, pushing everyone around because we can. And while it sounds kind of funny to some, it makes us look bad...No wonder people don't respect us.

On another note, my mother finally lost her faith in organized religion which has given me a small glimmer of hope that she has opened her eyes and finally started doing something for herself instead of leaving it in the hands of some god. It's nice to see people grow, analyze and come to a logical resolve to things....Now if only a mass logical hysteria would happen (People running around in circles, left to right, screaming mathematical equations, quantum physics and deep philosophy while clutching tightly on their heads as the trip and squirm in the ground into the fetal position.) maybe a better world wouldn't be too far off....Yeah, that's my kind of world.

First Rant.

Hello, My name is Gio.

I am a frustrated artist, musician, poet, writer, lover, man, child, friend, son, geek, student, gamer, worker, procrastinator, teacher, leader and comic...Among other things.

I always strive to be good at what I do and work hard at it. Even procrastination. I have a goal in life which is not having a goal and see how life passes by. It could sound like a boring life or it may seem like I'm an underachiever, but that is far from the truth. I have amazing friends, an amazing girlfriend, an interesting family with all their odd ends and quirks, an amazing dog who is as crazy as I am...So overall, I'd say I have a pretty amazing life.

I didn't make a blog to brag about how I've traveled like most people do, nor am I publishing this to make my life sound more interesting than what it is. Honestly, I don't know why I'm doing this. Maybe I see this as some sort of therapy for myself. Or maybe I'm thinking I will reach out to someone eventually, although, with so much blogging going on these days, who hasn't found someone that says "I know what that guy means, I'm going through the same thing."

I'm not much of a writer. My vocabulary is pretty limited and borderlines common use so I wont be using all these big, fancy words people use in their blogs to sound more intricate and deep than what they are in real life.

I've always been horrible with finishing things. Studies, drawings, paintings, songs, sentences, paragraphs...Pretty much everything. And I use ellipses way too much.

So now, fellow reader, that you know something about me, I hope I remember posting my rants and happenings frequently. Maybe someone out there will find these amusing or maybe even therapeutic.

Again, I'm no psychologist. I'm just a 22 year old who is addicted to World of Warcraft, Photoshop, his girlfriend, his dog and Wendy's Double Stacks....